Taking Time To Smell The Roses

So since the birth of the love of my life I have yet to sit and stop.  As soon as he was born I moved into a new home.  Three weeks later I resumed school.  10 weeks later I started back to work.

He is now 18 months old. 

I feel like so much has gone so fast.  Have I missed out?  Have I missed a chance with him.  I try so hard to be everything.  Be a good wife, a homemaker, a mom, a student, a career woman, a friend, and an independant woman.  But, somewhere in the midst of it all I feel like I may be compromising something somewhere.

So………………..I have decided this week to take a hiatus from school.   This is a huge decision for me.  I want so bad to finish and eventually have my PhD, but at what cost.  Em will only be little for so long.  Also this being the holiday season I want to share so much with him.

In part I do feel like I am losing a little bit of myself in the decision.  But, ultimately I am making this decision for him.  Ever hear that song by Match Box 20?  How Far We’ve Come….well that’s how I feel.   Look how far I have come.  I am now making decisions based on someone other than myself.  I am deciding to give more time to Em, letting him have more time with mommy.   I will go back in three months, I need to finish for me and him.  I want my son to see that men and women can do it all.  I can be a mom, wife, and career woman.  But…all in due time. 

Em and I talked this over today.  This big decision of mine.  We talked how I would tell daddy, how we would spend the extra time, and how it is a good idea for us.  He told me “mammy peeaze babeee”…and kissed me.  I think he approves of my decision.

“Nothing you do for children is ever wasted. They seem not to notice us, hovering, averting our eyes, and they seldom offer thanks, but what we do for them is never wasted.” (Keilor)